i go within. i seek the place within myself that is peaceful and i can feel the goddess. its my own shadow place, filled with the night sky and the light of the full moon and the presence of the goddess.
When I get upset or frustrated, I have to find somewhere quiet and vacant before it gets overwhelming. I don't always have the luxury of going for a walk or meditating. I have to remember to breathe, that everything is controlled by my breathing. A lot of times, I act on instinct, turn everything into anger and turn anger into physical action. Clean, run, punch something, lol, anything to get it out.
“When the night drifts into stillness, past the witching hour’s toll,
Where the shadows fall in silence and darkness reaches for my soul.
When I breathe into the deepening void, entrusting imagination’s dream,
Where my spirit touches science, and holds the space that drifts between.”
I do my best to embrace such moments, succomb to the dark and let myself fall. Through a breathing pattern and with a simple mantra that I whisper, I push into the void, hoping to find a deeper understanding of my aloneness and what more I am.
I just finished writing a short piece on this for a project my editor is putting together. It is titled, "The Matters of Darkness", and the lines above are from it.
do my best to embrace such moments, succomb to the dark and let myself fall. Through a breathing pattern and with a simple mantra that I whisper, I push into the void, hoping to find a deeper understanding of my aloneness and what more I am.
Wow. This is an approach I'd like to learn to take more often.
When I get angry sad or upset I tend to just flip out and not care what anyone thinks and then sometimes i will go take a hot bath to try to calm myself or i'll go for a walk and if all else fails i just ride it out and pray that i don't hurt myself or others.
One such place where time stops is the hour before dawn, in the deepest of night, when all motion of energy is quiet and there is the peace of death, stillness. Timelessness; Pure, crystal clear moments, a gap in the energy wave that is our world. In my time I embrace darkness seeking to become the very soul of the night.