All Beliefs are Welcome Here!
A lot of you know what the prognosis was from the doctor. When you hear the words "...If you don't you will die" thrown at you, things tend to be a bit narrowed in your view until you can snap yourself out of it, and start making plans. Even though I made plans what would happen if the worst truly did happen, I have decided that I am going to fight this tooth and nail. I am the type of person that gets all of her ducks in a row, on both sides. I also make contingency plans in case something in the other two plans don't work out. I am still going to go to school, continue singing, and continue writing. However, I am going to go outside more, get out in the fresh air, out in the sun a lot more. I heard that just doing that can help a prognosis/diagnosis that I had. I am also going to try alternative medicine of some kind. Chemotherapy can't be the only thing that is going to save my life.
Yes, I am scared shitless. I can't help that. However, I am not scared for me, I am scared for you, those I am the closest to. Yes, I know that in the long run, you will be ok, but those of you who are my extended family, I hate the thought of hurting you in any way. You guys mean a lot to me. You have seen me through the worst, laughed me during the best, and teased each other, and the stupid people during the between times. So help me Apollo, we will continue to do that. But if there are no alternative medicines, I will take the chemo.
Thank you everyone that has stuck behind me. When you get news like this, people tend to run the other way. My true friends have stuck by me, and have held me up for the last few days, and I love you for it. You don't even know how much.
I love you all