So I've been a solitary practitioner all 8 years I've been on this path. I've met other pagans online, such as here on paganspace, but never been to a group or shared a ritual with anyone. My spirituality has been solely mine this entire time. The closest I've come is by taking part in other religions, but this really wasn't the same. Sure I've found welcoming communities and enjoyed learning about their faith, but it wasn't really mine so it wasn't really real. I always felt like I was hiding some part of myself from them. Not with pagans. I can say "I'm eclectic" and most won't dismiss me or look down on me. In fact a lot of them second the sentiment!
Well, I decided maybe I wanted to change that. On and off for a few years now I've been looking for a pagan group in my area to meet with. Of course, it hasn't been easy. There really aren't many groups like that around here and it's even harder to find ones that I feel I could connect with and who meet at times and in locations that I can manage. That all changed a few weeks ago.
I finally found a group that I can make some meetings for, and so far they seem quit nice and welcoming and I'm hoping I can relate to them and they to me as far as beliefs and practices go. I tried to go to a meeting a couple weeks ago, but already had plans and the two just ran too close together so in the end I couldn't make it. Then I saw a full moon ritual scheduled for tonight, and I made it!
So as of June 26th, 2010 I've finally had my first group ritual! From what I can tell, there are some pretty cool people there, and I think the group may be a fairly comfortable fit for me. So I'm going to try and make a few more meetings and see how I like it. Perhaps I've finally found myself a religious community! On the other hand, part of me likes being solitary. Still, it's a good thing to try this summer, while I'm out of school, so we'll see where it goes. I might decide having a group is preferable to working strictly alone. I'll keep you guys updated.