I'm very anxious tonight. A family member decided to flip out on me again over a misunderstanding. The thing is since I've been dealing with issues with my pregnancy and everything else, I no longer have patience for rudeness or people just being selfish. This is a constant thing with them. Always telling me what I'm doing wrong, etc, etc. Needless to say it ended with them deleting me (I know it's such a heartbreaker)... and then texting me to tell me all this stuff. I stood my ground and had to tell them that unless they can act right, I won't have the negativity in my life. I need to focus on my unborn child, etc. 

Well now later tonight I have a ton of anxiety. I feel like my nerves are on fire. The problem is I know without a doubt I did the right thing. I can't keep letting negativity into my life. Or those that love constant drama. But I hate how I feel right now. I wish that life was so much simpler. I'm thinking the anxiety is coming from past feelings of being abandoned by family cause of religion, and now this person is being added to the group of those that no longer talk to me. But all I can do is just try to move forward with my life. It's funny how I've gotten rid of so many negative people in my life over the last year, and that was one of my resolutions. I haven't conscientiously done this, it's just happened. But you know what? It's the best thing. Life is so much more peaceful when you don't have to deal with those that bring in drama. Life on my own is drama enough.

So I'm hoping I can get this anxiety to ease, as I'm beyond tired and ready for bed and have to get up early to take munchkin to school. I feel better though having typed out my feelings. I know this is always helpful.

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Comment by Michelle Szabo RMT on December 11, 2013 at 12:39pm

Clearly an attempted control mechanism on their part. You are so right to stand your ground and do what's right for you. Keep on your path of light and love and know you are supported by others.

Comment by TheMorningStar on December 11, 2013 at 5:15pm

Thank you. And I think that's part of why people are getting so upset with me, is because my whole life I didn't stand up for myself and allowed others feelings to matter more than mine. Now I'm standing up for myself and being considered a bitch for it, or being selfish. lol. 

Comment by Kixs on December 12, 2013 at 8:05am

I had a time in life like you speak of when I was carrying my second child and was accused of being a selfish bitch. I just smiled and agreed with them. My oldest a few years later went through the same thing with her first child and also was accused of being a bitch and selfish. I bought her a T shirt that said, "Proud Member of the Selfish Bitch Club".  She just passed it on to her younger sister...lol.

Comment by Sylvan Wood on December 12, 2013 at 10:31am

Keep reaching forward. Good and positive people will come into your life to take the place of the negative ones. You already disagree with how these negative people think so just remind yourself that their conclusions about you or anything else in the universe don't carry much weight. From small minds come small thoughts.


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