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my ex boyfriends girlfriend called me last night. my husband intercepted the call. apparently my ex was talking about me in his sleep again. she knows that hes still in love with me. and she knows i still care about him. she tried to talk my husband into letting my ex have some sort of relationship with me. i love my ex too but i love my husband and i want to be faithful. i dont like the idea of hurting either one. my ex is only my ex because my parents did not like how close that ex and i were getting and forbid us from seeing each other, and had the ability to back it up. we had been together 8 years. and i miss him like crazy. he was my first love and my best friend. my husband and i are deeply in love, but not without our share of marital problems. first being we live with my mother in law. we are in the process of upgrading to a bigger place although my mother in law will always be living with us it seems. i cant say as the thought of having another person in my life other than my husband hasnt crossed my mind. i am quite lonely. husband works at night and sleeps during day, having 2 days off each week. if i found someone to be with me while he is away i would be a lot happier. it has very to do with sex. i just want a companion. and before anyone says, get a dog, i will say this, my mil refuses to let us have any animals of any kind. being bisexual i wouldnt mind being with a woman. i know that hubby wouldnt mind it either. im leary of being with women because im not the most attractive and its hard to find girls to see past that. i just dont want ex to keep suffering. hes already lost 3 marriages because he calls out my name in bed or sex, he has called his wives by my name before. i feel responsible. i love him and i hate to see him hurting like this. hes tried to stay away before, hoping this would just go away, but its not. polyamorous relationships can work. im not worried about the pregnancy issue as ive had a tubal. it would be an adjustment for the kids, i understand that, but i just want everyone to be happy. male or female, im tired of being alone. which is what i am for 5 days out of the week