I am looking to experience the Wiccan World and have only observed from afar..finding it very appealing and interesting. I was a Christian once upon a time and found myself turning to the Buddhist teachings not finding what I was looking for. I think I am somewhere between Buddhism and some kind of elemental mix...not sure if that's accurate..but looking to complete a journey I don't think has an end for me. I know Karma has driven my life and finding that connection has truly been difficult. I have only experience enlightenment once on a spiritual plane that was so amazing that words can't describe. It vexes me that I cannot reach this level of mental utopia...and that I reached by accident. I have tried to focus my energy and meditated for days with little else than the smell of the forest and only taking in water and bread, never achieving the calmness and clarity of what I felt...it was just indescribable...I'm not crazy...I think I am as sane as they come...but experienced something bigger than myself and now I am consumed with finding this happiness again. Anything I can learn here might help me in a journey to enlightenment..I know this sounds gay and cheesy, but if you felt it, you know it’s real.